Saturday, January 30, 2010

Almost Over

Wow, I really can't believe January is almost over. I really believe a lot of things that God took away from us during this season of fasting and consecration we as a body of Christ can't go back too. I feel like I've been on a spiritual journey and this is just the beginning of things. God really showed me how much I depend on him and how much I can't do without him. God has been showing me my heart like never before. You know when its God, when your so aware of your sin, and your wicked heart. It's just like I can't get away from it and I know I can't change myself...God has to do the work. I was at work and praying to God. Lord, you said that every thought would be in obedient to the will of God...bringing your thoughts under subjection.( 2Corin 10:5) How can this be? How is it possible? The Lord said to my heart, " You need to go deeper into the realm of the spirit; where the enemy can't touch you." When you read in Revelations, John talks about how God took him away in the spirit and revealed to him visions and revelation of what was going to happen in the end time. Just to be lost in God that way. God doesn't have to take me to the third heaven, I will just be happy knowing Jesus and Jesus knowing me. Just how when Jesus said to Satan..."Hast thou considered my servant Job?" ( Job 1:7). I want God to be able to look to and fro the earth and be able to say "Have you considered my daughter?:...She is just and upright in my eyes. God has been just dealing with me so much during this time. My prayer has been that I would see sin through his eyes. That I would feel his heart when he looks at the state of the Church and the world. Leonard Raven-Hill said, "Oh to be lost in him..Oh to be consumed in him". That is my cry in these last days. I want to be lost in Jesus. I want to KNOW Jesus. I don't want to know ABOUT him. I want to know the God of Jacob, Abraham, and Issac...The same God who is alive back then and alive now. I know if I know Jesus, that is where my confidence would come from. That is where my boldness would come from. In Acts, Peter and John were going to the temple and there was a crippled or beggar asking for alms at Gate Beautiful... Peter said, "Look on us"...Why did he say that? Because he knew what he had in God. He knew that God was alive and could heal that man. Peter said, "Silver and Gold have I none; but such as I have give I thee: In the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth rise up and walk"...Oh to have the boldness of God...Oh to have that faith and confidence in God. As Christians, most of us don't have much money, but we want to be able to say to the lost, " I have don't have money, but I have JESUS!!!" Jesus can save you...Jesus can heal you...Oh its only through Jesus. When I look at Peter's life throughout the bible, he is the most humane person I could relate too. But looking at his end; when I read the book of Acts, I know there is hope for me too..Peter was filled with God...He was able to lift up his voice in temples and proclaim the name of Christ. Without doubt or fear, but with the boldness of the Holy Ghost.

Saturday, January 23, 2010

God's Chosen Fast

God bless, Just a few thoughts I had today. Isn't it something when you want to be obedient to everything in the life works against it? The lord has been showing me how easily distracted I am. (This month our church is fasting and consecrating and we try to abstain from entertainment and everything that may distracts us) so, I was on the Internet last night "checking my email"...and before you know it I was looking at video after video on YouTube!! Watching people "shout"...and all this other stuff. When I finally went to bed, I began to talk to the lord, and I said," I don't even know if I should say lord forgive me...because I keep doing it!!" When I ask forgiveness from something I don't want to ever do it again. But my whole point is, in Isaiah 58, God talks about the chosen fast. In that chosen fast you should be afflicting your soul and flesh. In that chapter God told Israel that they "exact all your labors and found pleasure" This was not God's chosen fast...Its not a time for you to be happy and satisfied...its a serious time...The lord has been leading me on extended fast, but I feel like I keep messing up by becoming distracted. I seriously thought it would be hard to fast as school, but that is the easier part, the hardest part is staying consecrated and keeping your fellowship with the Lord. In Chapter 58, God tell us so many things that could happen, if we give him that chosen fast. Heavy burdens, oppresses spirits and every yoke would be broken in our life. This is that fast that God has chosen. To consecrate means to set apart; to come aside. God says to rend our hearts and not our garments.(Joel 2:13) He said the foreskin of our hearts should be circumcised.( Deu 10:16) Lord, if we could just see in all of your glory. God we can be able to see ourselves and how sinful we really are. You said our hearts are deceitful above all things and desperately wicked; who can know it?( Jeremiah 17:9)..Lord, David cry was "Give me a clean heart, oh God, renew a right spirit within me"(Psalm 50)...Oh God, is that not our cry in these last days? Let that be every person cry who professes to walk with you. Oh Lord, let us set our heart on you. Oh God, let us lay aside every weight and sin that so easily besets us. Let us run with patience. Looking unto you Oh, God. Looking unto Jesus the Author and Finisher our faith.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

The possiblities

I had this thought tonight at work,
Oh, the possibilies of what God can do through his people; if we just sacrifice our ALL to him. Can you imagine on judgement day & God tells you everything you missed out on because you settled for giving God average?
Lord, help us to give everything to you. No sacrifice is to great for the Gospel of Jesus Christ.

Work and School

So things are slowly moving into session. I had my first class Today. I have another at 2 o'clock, but I am on break. I have work from 7-9pm Tonight, so thats not too bad. The big thing is tomorrow I have two classes starting at 8 to about 12...Then I have work from 1:00-9:00!!!!!!...ugh..kinda disappointed beings as it being my first week back. I'm just going to ask the Lord to help me. Thats all for today. I know no word of encouragement or prayer, maybe I'll post something later on tonight. I don't feel so well either.

Sunday, January 17, 2010


So, I am back on campus..Classes will start Tuesday, January 19. I really don't have much to say. My hearts prayer is that I will draw closer to the Lord. I wouldn't be distracted. The lord has been requiring a sacrifice from in certain areas of my life. I struggled with it, tossed,& turned with it and now I am ready to just give it to God. David said, ( I am paraphrasing) " I will not give that which does not cost me nothing". How can we ask God to do so much stuff in our lives, but were not willing to lay it ALL on the altar? God just help me. Help the people of God. Take the desire away. Help your people to see sin through your eyes. Lord, you said we have power to become the sons of God. I feel like this is a turning point in the people of God's life. We don't want to be like the people of Israel..Going around in circles for 40 years..murmuring and complaining. God was trying to get the people somewhere, just like he is trying to get the attention of the people of God. Lord, help us to do what you have called everyone of else to do, and Lord help us to keep our eyes focus on you. Only you Jesus. 1 Corinthians 9:27. But I keep under my body, and bring it into subjection: lest that by any means, when I have preached to others, I myself should be a castaway.

Saturday, January 16, 2010

God wants Holiness

During the month of January, Our church comes aside to consecrate and fast unto the Lord. We try to shut off entertainment and ever distraction that hinders our walk with God. The more we give ourselves to God we realize how the basic things in life can be a huge distraction. Today I was having a conversation with my mom about certain movies I like to watch. There were two specific movies coming up that I wanted to see in February. My mom was saying, she didn't believe these movies were of God or she didn't see how it benefit me with my walk with the Lord. I said, " How in the world will these little movies hinder my walk with God?" She said, " Remember, its the little foxes that spoil the vine"...She said, " God wants holiness". I thought to myself, "Yeah, God does want holiness...but I greatly desire to see these movies". That pretty much was the end of the conversation. A couple hours later...I heard was "God want's holiness"..."God wants holiness". A lot of times we give excuse for our sin, but we pray that God would move in our life. We are not willing to lay these things on the altar. Its the sin that so easily besets. Paul said, " All things are lawful, but all things are not expedient; I will not be brought under the power of any". Some things in the walk with God are just not sin, but its a distraction and it can keep you out of the Kingdom of God. I don"t know about you, but everything that God is dealing with me during this time, I don"t want to go back too in February or any other months. As we walk with God, our standards much go up higher. Our convictions has to be even stronger...because God wants holiness. He said, " Be ye holy, for I am holy." 1 Peter 1:16.

Friday, January 15, 2010

Where is your Hope?

Looking at the Haitian Earthquake makes you bring a lot of things in perspective. Sometimes we forgot that our lives are a today and gone tomorrow. These are the facts of life and during these times, there is nothing you can hold onto, but....GOD. You can't hold onto your job, money, possessions or family because God forbid all these things can be gone in a blink of a eye. So, I ask you today. Do you have hope? Where does it lie? Do you have trust? Whom do you trust in? Hopefully not yourself. Let Israel hope in the LORD:for with the LORD there is mercy,and with him is plenteous redemption., Psalms 130:7. Your hope and your trust has to lie in God. He truly is our only hope. Even in the small situations...when we feel like everything is falling apart...Hope in God...Trust in Him. God said he isn't slack concerning his promises towards. He isn't a man that he should lie! What he said, he SHALL do..He will bring it to pass. I am going to find the references to these verses and post them, but these are the scriptures I hold onto..because my Hope is in his word. Amen? Amen.

Thursday, January 14, 2010


Its the year of 2010...and we all have made some New years Resolutions consciously or unconsciously. During New Years Eve, I was on my knees declaring to God that this year things will be different. I would have a boldness for the things of God. I would be quick to obey him and delight in obeying him. My prayer was that God would heal my heart and that I would move on in him. At this moment, I am just waiting on God to bring these prayers to past.
"I wait for the LORD,my soul doth wait, and in his Word do I hope" Psalms 130:5

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Love is a Sacrifice

A couple weeks ago, the Lord laid a brother in Christ on my heart. I felt like God wanted me to love him with his love. During the prayer time, God had me feel his heart and I began to cry out for him. A couple of days later, I began to complain and murmur, " Why does God always lay people on my heart that are hard to love or people who don"t return God's love". God dealt with me afterwards by dropping questions in my spirit... " What would be the point to love a person with my love if the person loves you back? It would't be the love of God. You would't be able to see me working in the situation because you would be relying on your own love. When you love someone with God's love, you are sacrificing your emotions, your heart, and everything else. The scripture says, " For if ye love them which love you, what thank have ye? for sinners also love those that love them. And if ye do good to them that which do good to you, what thank have ye? for sinners also do even the same". Luke 6:32-33. The love of God goes beyond human capability. God's love takes patience, long-suffering, humbleness, meekness and strength. Let that be our prayer that God would help us to love everyone with his love. That as a people of God we wouldn't be so quick to judge and find flaws. Just as Jesus looked beyond our faults and saw our need for him that we can do the same.